I heard it all. It was as if the world was ending just from merely mentioning the idea of dying my hair blue. I was so sure I wanted this too, and for so long! It had been over a year and I never stepped up to the plate, which for me is odd, as I typically tend to do spontaneous things that are out of the norm. But the words were replaying in my head, “Don’t do it… Seriously, don’t do it!” The panic had set in. I found myself staring in the mirror at my hair for longer than what was normal and thinking about how much I loved it the way it was, which was something I never felt before. And then, cracking under pressure, I told myself I wouldn’t do it… How could I do it? I look great! and I soon found myself searching online for “safer” options.
Then I gave myself a good smack in the face — THIS IS NOT ME. “Safer options?” That’s just not my style. I’m the artsy type, the spontaneous type, the “I like ugly things” type! Why was I negotiating myself out of my true character because of the opinions of others who were nothing like me?! I was frustrated with myself. I felt at that moment that I didn’t even know me. Was I who everyone wanted me to be, or was I who I wanted to be? Was I going to let everyone else tell me what to do? Was I really going to let other people’s opinions of me sway my own opinions and decisions for myself? I thought I was going to vomit, and I know that sounds so dramatic, but I felt nauseous to an abnormal degree. That’s exactly the type of person I have never wanted to be, scared to do out of the box things because of the opinions of others. Who even cares if anyone likes it if I like it? And it’s just hair… it grows back, can be dyed over again, can even be cut off!
I escaped to my friend’s apartment for the weekend and it was then that I realized it. As she encouraged me to do it, talked about her hair goals herself, and bounced around the room with me to our favorite tunes, I really realized it. There are going to be tons of people in your life who are nothing like you, and you’re going to love them for that—but you can’t let their opinions of what you like persuade you, nor can you let anyone’s, really. Therefore, I don’t say this lightly, it’s great to have friends of all types, but never forget to surround yourself with people that are very much like you, and not just people, but your environment. Find that place, somewhere out there in this world that you automatically feel in love with even for the first time. It’s those people and those places that will bring out your truest, youest you, and we all need that. We become who we are because of the people and places we surround ourselves with. How does one enhance their creative soul and be creative to the best of their ability in a non-creative environment? For instance, all of my poetry is usually about love, and my best writing and deepest emotions about love all come out when it’s written in bed, my comfort zone, next to the person I love… it makes sense, right?
So don’t settle. Don’t have friends who you don’t click with right away. Even if they aren’t anything like you, if you click with them they will bring out amazing sides of you, some that you didn’t even know you had, and don’t live somewhere that doesn’t describe who you are. Move. It’s simpler than people make it out to be. And always do what you want to initially. Your gut and instincts are your truest self talking to you. Don’t ever let anyone, or the status quo, influence your style, your choices in friends, hobbies, etc. What makes you special is being you and no one else, and not catering to other people’s desires or opinions. If they love you, they will still continue to do so anyway, for the you inside, not your blue hair.
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